Celebrations or.... not!

As the radical surgery of them removing all of my breast tissue, my lymph nodes from both sides, AND my left Pectoral Muscle came to an end, recovery was on the horizon. That is what I focused on!! It was an extremely tough recovery, not a whole lot of moving for six weeks!! And issues with the incisions staying closed and my body rejecting the dissolvable stitches, was one of the hardest things!! And of course the impending Chemo treatment!! My treatments couldn't begin until my incisions healed! So until then I tried enjoying my time alive, and my time with my children. I needed. To show them that I was in control!! So I scheduled a Hair today Gone tomorrow party! And my Mom and my sister came out in November 2012, during Thanksgiving to celebrate life with our family! And we ALL cut our hair! Some 20+ inches some 5 inches, and my husband and son both shaved their heads in support of me as well as my brother back home in Illinois!! That day can be found in an earlier blog :) 

Having my mom and sister come out and be part of that day was amazing!! It was an incredible day! I had great friends here, and my family, and all of them showed such love and support!! So I had shaved my head, and thank God I had a great shaped head! :) I soon became comfortable with a bald head and didn't care who didn't like it! I wanted people to know I was fighting, and not afraid! I wanted young girls to see me carry on with life as normal as we could make it and still be a mommy! I wanted my daughter to be proud that I was kicking cancers ass! I wanted girls to see first hand that you can kick it! And I wanted them to also see first hand that it is not an "old lady" disease! This affects women at all ages AND I am fighting for myself and for them to never have to get that awful call!!! 

Soon after November's Hair today gone tomorrow event, my mom and sister returned home, and December hit! And my body couldn't fight off the rejection that my body was going through. I had rejected my expander on the left side and started to get septic! :( I was admitted into the hospital, put on two high doses of antibiotics via IV and then taken into surgery on December 10th to remove and replace the expander with the new one! I was then released two days later on 12-12-12! My body was finally healing and I had and amazing "Murphy's law - less" rest of the month!! :) I enjoyed Christmas with my family and waking up to see my beautiful children's faces on Christmas morning!! I also got to enjoy waking up to my amazing husband's face on our 10th wedding Anniversary on 12-31-12! We followed the celebration of ten years married and the new year of 2013, with surgery for my port n January 3rd! 

With Chemo starting January 15th and each time getting tougher, I don't remember much of what happen during the months of January,  February, March and part of April! :/ it is amazing how much they have to "kill" you in order to save you!!! As tough as it was,I would do it again in a heart beat if it meant getting to see my children and Husband every day!!  & I will continue to talk about it, walk for it, and mention it as much as I can so hopefully it will Save someone's life!!  I refuse to let "Murphy's law" take over my life anymore!!