The start of Phase two!

So my Port for the Chemo has finally been scheduled to be placed on January 3rd, 2013! That is3 1/2 months following my diagnosis! I am ready but nervous and sick to my stomach all in one!

1) I am ready to start this process to get the Chemotherapy done and over with! Once it is started I know there will be a finish date projected! This also means that the initial hellacious surgeries are done and over with!! Yay!! Don't get me wrong I know I have many more surgeries and things I need to do before I am done, however, I can address the Breast Cancer easier when I look at it through stages! :)

2) Nervous for obvious reasons! This is Chemotherapy not a ride in the car or my wisdom teeth getting taken out! Nervous about the side effects, how it is going to affect my children, my husband, and all of our futures! I am praying that I move through this swiftly and effortlessly! I know that there are many instances where people go through Chemo and fly through it with just a little tired side effects and some nausea! Please, please, please pray that is me!! Those that know me are guessing that is NOT going to be me unfortunately, which brings me to reason #3!

3) Sick to my stomach knowing that I have a unique chemical makeup that allows me to react to A LOT of medications negatively! And sick to my stomach because I am walking Murphy's Law! (Ironic, as my Maiden name is Murphy!) I am staying positive, but knowing me and the doctors are even expecting me to have at least a minimal reaction and have already ordered A Benadryl drip to help counter act any reactions! :/ not sure how I feel about this! Lol not to mention there are all of the other negative side effects of the medicine too, the ones that almost everyone gets... Being tired, puking, hot sweats, low blood levels, etc etc....

Wow! Step two is such a doozie! But once step two is done step three will be MUCH easier!! :) Just praying for time to pass quickly and things to be as easy as possible!! God knows I am asking a lot, when others could certainly use more luck, prayers and love. But if I could possibly, get any of those?! That, that would be great!! From this point on I will do my best to keep updates coming, especially since I think it will keep me out of the "Nut House"!