First I would like to start this post by saying I am completely and deeply saddened by the most recent tragedy, the shootings in Connecticut! My heart aches in pain for the families and friends of those lost! This horrible, horrible thing should NEVER have ever happened!! And as many of you know I have struggled with my Insurance in the past, present and probably the future! And while I like the fact that Birth Control is required to be covered by insurance, I would gladly give up those rights to someone in need of Mental Health Care Coverage! Why is it that it is Not required to cover Mental Health?? I have never understood this, don't understand this, nor will I ever, probably, be able to understand it!! Let me just end this bit by saying may God Rest their souls, and bring closure and support to the families and friends!!
On another note, and a very selfish one at that after the horrible tragedy in Connecticut....
My family and I have been, since March of this year (2012), on a whirlwind of emotions, depression, happiness, thankfulness, gratefulness (no they are not the same thing (: ), tiredness, confusion, anger, and blessings! ~ I am sure I missed some kind of feeling or emotion in their somewhere! AT ANY RATE, we have been through a lot! Starting this year as well I was brought into a company, in February, that was everything I was hoping for, wishing for and praying for! Along with that company came great friends (which included great family members, of those friends, I got to know). This company, Home Value Experts, LLC; had just started and with hiring me, was taking a, well, leap of faith! You see going into this company, I thought I was going to be a Surrogate!! (Which I was in the middle of working on) I thought, oh this is going to be hard to give them everything and then be missing time for appointments, and ultimately time off for the birth! The owners, however, knew of this, and were completely 100% on board!! They were absolutely okay with the situation as long as I kept them in the loop of everything! DEAL! That was wonderful! Here I had a great job, and GREAT people that I worked with and for, and I was going to be a Surrogate for a wonderful couple! HOWEVER, God changed my plans and decided that I was not able to be a Surrogate again, and in fact I had to prove to Him how strong I was! With Cervical Cancer diagnosed in March (just 1 month after being hired!), and Breast Cancer in September, how was this even remotely fair to this company that took a leap of faith on me?!?! It wasn't! And in the midst of all the appointments, the news, as crappy as it was, stood my office, full of open, loving caring hearts!! They have stood by myself and my family since day one, without a wavier! I have unfortunately been off work since my birthday, October 18th, my last day their, thus far, and still have no idea when I could possibly return! But they, they are just supporting this process and supporting my family, with love, compassion, and prayers! This has made this entire process easier, doable, manageable, and strengthening, to know good people are still out their!! Unfortunately, during this time I have not been able to work, it makes it harder to pay the bills. While we are still floating and we are not as bad off as some. And I am grateful for the help, support and prayers we get and have gotten!! And not only from my work but my Husband's work and family! My husband's work is AMAZING!! They are understanding, caring and loving (and Family). They have been their for the past 11 years for me, and now through this they are here for me yet again in the biggest of ways! They are our rock, our understanding and support! And we certainly could not do this without them either! They have been what keeps us going, what has kept us afloat, what keeps our spirits high, a security in knowing my Husband is secure in a job as well! I am grateful we have been able to get by this long without struggling too much!! The fact of the matter is we are not sure how long we can tread water before it becomes too much with all of the running back and forth, medical stays, holidays, birthdays, sicknesses, and setbacks... So a friend of mine has set up a small donation site that will help us raise money to stay above water through the holidays!! I am grateful and blessed for all we do have and will have!! With as much heart ache and pain as this brings, it also brings love, blessings and heart warming!! May God Bless each and Every one this Holiday Season!!!
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