Knowing you are not alone, that makes everything easier!

You hear your not alone, you know your not alone, but yet you feel alone... Your alone in your thoughts, your fears, your anger, hatred, frustrations, and anxiety! People say they understand or they want it understand. But the truth is NO ONE REALLY understands, but, I have found that there are others that go through similar situations, and are pretty close to understanding what you are going through. And this makes the feeling like your alone, go away, even if just for a moment. And in that or those moments it makes everything easier, calmer, more understandable. Everyone's case is different, even if it is the same type of cancer, and the same type of treatment! Some lose all their hair some lose the hair on their head, but not their eye brows, and eye lashes. Some get nauseous, some get tired, and some don't have hardly any issues what so ever! All I know is that the unkown of how I am going to react is irritating me more than ever now! With so many people being so different with the same types of treatment their so no way to know for sure if you will or will not act a certain way. You would think it would be pretty straight forward but it apparently depends on how big you are, how much you tolerate pain, how much you tolerate nausea, if you have reactions easy, if you are fighting a cold, if your depressed, if your constantly happy, or even if you are male or female. But, knowing that somewhere, someone has gone through a symptom that you will be going through and has gotten through it, means that I will too! I may be alone in my thoughts, and feelings and everything else I said, but I know I am not alone physically, emotionally, and certainly not spiritually! I know that this is just another step, just one more in a long, bumpy hellacious road, that will someday allow me to look back and be proud that I fought my way through it! Not only did I fight my way through it, I would be able to say I fought my way through it with the love and support if friends and family!!